This morning I called my mother as I usually do. She questioned my choice in agreeing to pay off the debt I have with one of my credit card companies. Stating simply that I could not survive on fifty dollars a month it was clear I had made the wrong decision during a time of stress. I called the creditor and explained that I could not honor the agreement to pay back the debt.
In my last post I explained my position describing my alcohol abuse and cigaret addiction as I questioned my moral character in not paying the creditor. It is clear that I should not be spending a cent on these to habits when I'm not even paying for my own groceries. It is clear that compulsive spending on tech toys is the wrong thing to be spending my food money on. I can not defend my moral character, and using my mental health as an excuse seems rather lame. Even the adage A man can not survive on food alone, seems not to be applicable.
All I can say is I made a series of very bad choices that has resulted in my current financial crisis, and there is nothing I can do to change the past. Still, I can try to move forward in the future by focusing on the fundamentals of living and abstaining from spending my money on alcohol. While I'd like to include cigarets in that category I'm highly addicted and nothing short of rehab could free me.
I can use these mistakes to teach me a lesson on how to better myself morally and otherwise. The alternative being I destroy myself with guilt.
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